Sometimes I get confused
I don’t understand how I could have fallen this far
Let myself go
all for the sake of living in the moment
Now, the moment has passed
All I have left is the stain in my bed, all I have left is the perpetual headache in my head and the feeling that a part of me is missing
I miss you
I miss the way we used to be,
We could converse about literally everything, anything
Slowly you let me grow, left me alone to make my own decisions but now I just feel left alone
When I am in your building you remind me of your presence but like a tease it only lasts for 3600 seconds
I come back again the following week, the next and then the next
Hoping to encounter you again
I do
I do
I feel you holding me, I feel your grace against my skin, I feel your love as the warm tears rush from my eyes
But now they have gone cold
Nothing is left but a streak against my face
I go through the week remembering your name, two three times before I lay my head down for bed
Shame on me
Shame on ME
I complain but yet I do nothing
I hope that by some miracle you will absolve me from this problem
I am no longer a saint but your daily sinner so as I write this
This is my confessional, this is my daily bread, this is how I say I am sorry and this is how I pray for your mercy
Amen