Banana Split

That was it.

We

Split.

It was over.

I so badly wanted to call you and tell you that I love you

I secretly wanted every red blink on my phone to be a message from you

I wanted to tell you that this was a mistake.

That my decision,

Our decision…

Wasn’t a good decision.

That we should still be together.

But then my brain connected to my heart and reminded it:

“This isn’t the right time,”

“You both don’t have time for each other.”

Screw time!

I want to be with you!

But again, I seldom wait before another thought pops into my head

You can’t be in a relationship by yourself,

You need communication,

And you’re not gonna’ get it.

So as much as I wanna’ scream,

As much as I wanna’ shout all the way up to the heavens that:

I insert name here, want to be with you

I can’t…

I shouldn’t…

And I won’t.

Right guy, wrong time,

Period.

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Break Up

I cry and die inside at the thought of what just happened

You didn’t just abandon me

What you don’t realise is that you left me in a runt

Why you ask? Because until someone good comes along, being in a relationship is just a mere thought.

Even when they do come along, what am I supposed to do?

Am I supposed to run to them with open arms, or guard my heart and soul?

I hurt so much inside I can’t seem to find a way out

I have cried, and tried to forget you

I have prayed and yet still strayed

It all came back to you…

 

Sigh

 

I don’t even know what to say anymore

 

Thump, thump, thump, goes the beat of my heart

Each heart string pulling at the words you once meant

The words said that now have no meaning

You left me, you left ME,

No, what you did is tried to murder me

All that is left of me is an:

Insecure, alone, confused and unloved little woman

 

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