Banana Split

That was it.

We

Split.

It was over.

I so badly wanted to call you and tell you that I love you

I secretly wanted every red blink on my phone to be a message from you

I wanted to tell you that this was a mistake.

That my decision,

Our decision…

Wasn’t a good decision.

That we should still be together.

But then my brain connected to my heart and reminded it:

“This isn’t the right time,”

“You both don’t have time for each other.”

Screw time!

I want to be with you!

But again, I seldom wait before another thought pops into my head

You can’t be in a relationship by yourself,

You need communication,

And you’re not gonna’ get it.

So as much as I wanna’ scream,

As much as I wanna’ shout all the way up to the heavens that:

I insert name here, want to be with you

I can’t…

I shouldn’t…

And I won’t.

Right guy, wrong time,

Period.

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No Words

Whether you like it or not, your life revolves around him.

He asks you to sit, you sit.

He asks you to wait, you wait.

You enjoy this level of control, because to you, he cares.

His every minute calls, constant texts and effortless words remind you that he is there.

It’s too late.

You love him.

You love him because he makes you laugh, he is witty, he is smart,

You tell yourself that he wasn’t always like this,

He wasn’t always this demanding.

He is just insecure.

He is intimidated because he knows how much he loves you.

You my friend, are in denial.

This is just the beginning of the end.

This level of possessiveness is not cute.

This level of control over your life and your Facebook, isn’t right.

But you won’t listen to me.

I am just your friend, not the love of your life.

I am sorry I have failed you.

Short of losing you as my friend,

I have written you this.

If you remain in this relationship, ask yourself this one question:

‘Is he really worth all of this?’

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